1 00:00:08,716 --> 00:00:10,732 You're bleeding through your bandage. 2 00:00:16,736 --> 00:00:18,677 Good morning. 3 00:00:18,678 --> 00:00:20,719 Don't we need to get you to a doctor? 4 00:00:20,720 --> 00:00:22,715 I am a doctor. 5 00:00:22,716 --> 00:00:24,723 That didn't come up last night? 6 00:00:24,724 --> 00:00:26,745 We didn't do a lot of talking. 7 00:00:42,716 --> 00:00:44,736 I'm good. 8 00:00:57,691 --> 00:00:58,757 You never told me what caused your accident. 9 00:00:58,758 --> 00:01:02,748 I was stabbed by a patient. 10 00:01:02,749 --> 00:01:04,741 That'll teach me to overbill. 11 00:01:38,757 --> 00:01:40,715 If she likes crippled guys, 12 00:01:40,716 --> 00:01:42,710 I'm free for the next six minutes. 13 00:01:42,711 --> 00:01:43,707 What do you want? 14 00:01:43,708 --> 00:01:45,740 45-year-old truck driver, 15 00:01:45,741 --> 00:01:47,685 recurrent seizures. 16 00:01:47,686 --> 00:01:48,697 No metabolic or structural... 17 00:01:48,698 --> 00:01:49,757 does this look like a good time? 18 00:01:49,758 --> 00:01:51,727 Sort of. 19 00:01:51,728 --> 00:01:53,724 At least as good as the other 12 times 20 00:01:53,725 --> 00:01:56,694 that I've called and paged you in the last three weeks. 21 00:01:56,695 --> 00:01:57,755 Those times I just didn't feel like talking to you. 22 00:01:57,756 --> 00:01:58,762 Kinda like now. 23 00:01:58,763 --> 00:02:00,706 I'd apologize again, 24 00:02:00,707 --> 00:02:03,715 but I'm still waiting for you to accept the first one. 25 00:02:03,716 --> 00:02:05,702 You do work for me. 26 00:02:05,703 --> 00:02:07,719 I am entitled to ask when you're coming back. 27 00:02:07,720 --> 00:02:08,757 I don't know when I'm coming back. 28 00:02:08,758 --> 00:02:10,715 I don't know if I'm coming back. 29 00:02:10,716 --> 00:02:12,673 Got a problem with that, 30 00:02:12,674 --> 00:02:14,728 fire me. 31 00:02:20,979 --> 00:02:49,464 Subtitles by MemoryOnSmells http://UKsubtitles.ru 32 00:03:00,322 --> 00:03:01,343 Nice. 33 00:03:05,280 --> 00:03:07,274 It's good to see you in the hospital, 34 00:03:07,275 --> 00:03:08,351 as a patient if not as a doctor. 35 00:03:08,352 --> 00:03:11,275 Believe me, 36 00:03:11,276 --> 00:03:15,292 I'd rather be the guy with the clipboard. 37 00:03:15,293 --> 00:03:16,330 How you doing? 38 00:03:18,326 --> 00:03:20,313 Arrhythmias are gone. 39 00:03:20,314 --> 00:03:22,296 Fine motor control is improving. 40 00:03:22,297 --> 00:03:24,367 Not what I meant. 41 00:03:24,368 --> 00:03:27,308 If you need to talk to someone, 42 00:03:27,309 --> 00:03:29,313 a professional... 43 00:03:29,314 --> 00:03:31,363 I'm fine. 44 00:03:31,364 --> 00:03:34,284 Fine enough to get back to work? 45 00:03:36,314 --> 00:03:38,304 You don't have to work for House, 46 00:03:38,305 --> 00:03:40,342 but you do owe me 20 clinic hours. 47 00:03:40,343 --> 00:03:43,342 What, getting knifed doesn't buy me an extension? 48 00:03:43,343 --> 00:03:46,304 Buys you whatever you need. 49 00:03:46,305 --> 00:03:47,322 But I know you. 50 00:03:47,323 --> 00:03:49,363 If all you do is physical therapy 51 00:03:49,364 --> 00:03:51,304 and your nighttime version of it, 52 00:03:51,305 --> 00:03:52,372 you'll lose your mind 53 00:03:52,373 --> 00:03:56,326 faster than you regain those fine motor skills. 54 00:04:05,372 --> 00:04:08,313 I, uh, have this terrible pain 55 00:04:08,314 --> 00:04:10,321 in my left shoulder. 56 00:04:10,322 --> 00:04:12,321 It came out of nowhere. 57 00:04:12,322 --> 00:04:16,276 And nothing seems to help. 58 00:04:18,347 --> 00:04:20,346 Any other symptoms? 59 00:04:20,347 --> 00:04:23,287 Chest pain? Lightheadedness? 60 00:04:23,288 --> 00:04:25,292 No. None at all. 61 00:04:25,293 --> 00:04:26,330 What were you doing when the pain came on? 62 00:04:26,331 --> 00:04:28,333 Just sitting and praying. 63 00:04:28,334 --> 00:04:30,334 She'd been helping to make the altar breads that morning, 64 00:04:30,335 --> 00:04:33,329 but no hard physical work or repetitive motion. 65 00:04:33,330 --> 00:04:35,325 A couple of possibilities. 66 00:04:35,326 --> 00:04:37,308 You have enlarged lymph nodes, 67 00:04:37,309 --> 00:04:39,314 so I'd like to start by ruling out breast cancer. 68 00:04:39,315 --> 00:04:42,275 And I do mean "rule out." 69 00:04:42,276 --> 00:04:43,301 It's probably nothing. 70 00:04:43,302 --> 00:04:45,337 I'm gonna do a quick breast exam. 71 00:04:45,338 --> 00:04:47,276 Do you mind stepping out for a moment? 72 00:04:48,359 --> 00:04:51,343 Not at all. 73 00:04:55,305 --> 00:04:57,351 That was so I could ask about the second possibility. 74 00:04:57,352 --> 00:05:00,321 Left-sided pain means it could be angina, 75 00:05:00,322 --> 00:05:02,342 which is made worse by stress. 76 00:05:02,343 --> 00:05:04,330 Might not be a coincidence that the pain started 77 00:05:04,331 --> 00:05:07,313 on the verge of a major life change. 78 00:05:07,314 --> 00:05:09,283 How did you know? 79 00:05:09,284 --> 00:05:10,338 Blue Veil means you're a postulant, 80 00:05:10,339 --> 00:05:12,308 haven't taken your vows yet. 81 00:05:12,309 --> 00:05:14,350 Brown Vestments means you're Carmelites, 82 00:05:14,351 --> 00:05:16,287 cloistered nuns, 83 00:05:16,288 --> 00:05:17,364 which explains the chaperone. 84 00:05:20,347 --> 00:05:24,317 You're about to withdraw from the world for good. 85 00:05:24,318 --> 00:05:26,292 I was a seminarian. 86 00:05:26,293 --> 00:05:28,308 Who obviously didn't take his vows. 87 00:05:28,309 --> 00:05:30,301 Cassock made my ass look fat. 88 00:05:31,322 --> 00:05:33,303 Do you mind unbuttoning your shirt 89 00:05:33,304 --> 00:05:34,338 and lying down for me? 90 00:05:34,339 --> 00:05:36,304 Okay. 91 00:05:36,305 --> 00:05:38,337 I have had second thoughts. 92 00:05:38,338 --> 00:05:42,347 I'm kind of a wreck. 93 00:05:44,343 --> 00:05:46,308 A life of perpetual enclosure 94 00:05:46,309 --> 00:05:48,283 and almost complete silence? 95 00:05:48,284 --> 00:05:49,314 If you weren't wrestling with this, 96 00:05:49,315 --> 00:05:52,280 I'd say there's something really wrong with you. 97 00:05:57,372 --> 00:05:59,317 I'm going to admit you. 98 00:05:59,318 --> 00:06:00,347 There's a little mass here, 99 00:06:00,348 --> 00:06:03,333 and I'd like to get it checked out. 100 00:06:03,334 --> 00:06:05,354 It's just a benign fat deposit. 101 00:06:05,355 --> 00:06:07,317 Her imaging's clean. 102 00:06:07,318 --> 00:06:09,354 Stress test too. It's not angina. 103 00:06:09,355 --> 00:06:11,325 So why the shoulder pain? 104 00:06:11,326 --> 00:06:13,367 Is it possible 105 00:06:13,368 --> 00:06:15,371 that she hurt her shoulder? 106 00:06:15,372 --> 00:06:18,350 - Thanks a lot. - I didn't tell him. 107 00:06:18,351 --> 00:06:20,330 You were cagey about where you were going. 108 00:06:20,331 --> 00:06:22,337 And Chase being cagey in general. 109 00:06:22,338 --> 00:06:24,364 Good chance I'd find the two of you in the same cage. 110 00:06:24,365 --> 00:06:26,367 So I had Park follow you. 111 00:06:26,368 --> 00:06:29,325 How you feeling? 112 00:06:29,326 --> 00:06:31,304 Better. 113 00:06:31,305 --> 00:06:33,308 Heard your arm's healing nicely. 114 00:06:33,309 --> 00:06:35,333 Good to see you on your feet. 115 00:06:35,334 --> 00:06:36,370 Patient's a nun? 116 00:06:36,371 --> 00:06:38,355 You turning back to your long-abandoned faith 117 00:06:38,356 --> 00:06:40,300 in time of trouble? 118 00:06:40,301 --> 00:06:42,321 She was next up in the clinic. 119 00:06:42,322 --> 00:06:43,355 And I don't want your help. 120 00:06:43,356 --> 00:06:45,342 You got stabbed. 121 00:06:45,343 --> 00:06:47,371 You blame me. 122 00:06:47,372 --> 00:06:49,337 But what did you learn about me 123 00:06:49,338 --> 00:06:51,313 that you hadn't known for years? 124 00:06:51,314 --> 00:06:53,350 Maybe I was an idiot before and I'm not one now. 125 00:06:53,351 --> 00:06:55,333 Or maybe the reverse is true. 126 00:06:55,334 --> 00:06:57,334 Thanks for all your help. 127 00:07:03,301 --> 00:07:07,308 Your soul sister is having a fungal infection 128 00:07:07,309 --> 00:07:10,317 from the unprocessed wheat in the altar breads. 129 00:07:10,318 --> 00:07:14,322 Explains the shoulder pain and the jumbo lymph nodes. 130 00:07:21,326 --> 00:07:24,309 Thanks for all my help. 131 00:07:27,314 --> 00:07:30,304 I'm... I'm sorry I led House to you. 132 00:07:30,305 --> 00:07:32,333 It's part of the job. 133 00:07:32,334 --> 00:07:34,367 Maybe we could get a meal after work tonight, 134 00:07:34,368 --> 00:07:39,308 if you want some companionship. 135 00:07:39,309 --> 00:07:41,308 You asking me out on a date? 136 00:07:41,309 --> 00:07:43,279 No. 137 00:07:43,280 --> 00:07:47,313 I just... I guess that sounded... 138 00:07:47,314 --> 00:07:49,308 must be scary to be back. 139 00:07:49,309 --> 00:07:52,321 All those knives and needles. 140 00:07:52,322 --> 00:07:55,321 Infected blood and tissue everywhere you look. 141 00:07:55,322 --> 00:07:59,358 Just thought you might need someone to talk to about it. 142 00:07:59,359 --> 00:08:02,342 Just knowing you're there for me is enough. 143 00:08:02,343 --> 00:08:06,293 Thanks. 144 00:08:10,314 --> 00:08:12,288 Ever surf Kirra point? 145 00:08:14,288 --> 00:08:16,317 Obviously you're Australian. 146 00:08:16,318 --> 00:08:20,300 I've surfed all over the gold coast. 147 00:08:20,301 --> 00:08:21,347 Don't tell me you have. 148 00:08:21,348 --> 00:08:24,287 The closest I got was Waimea Bay. 149 00:08:24,288 --> 00:08:27,309 I grew up on Maui. 150 00:08:28,364 --> 00:08:30,300 If you don't mind me asking, 151 00:08:30,301 --> 00:08:32,308 why are you becoming a nun? 152 00:08:32,309 --> 00:08:35,275 You asking 'cause I surf? 153 00:08:35,276 --> 00:08:37,309 Well, I know that Jesus walked on water but... 154 00:08:38,314 --> 00:08:41,300 Plus the average postulant is a lot younger than you. 155 00:08:41,301 --> 00:08:43,325 What were you doing before this? 156 00:08:43,326 --> 00:08:45,317 Not much of anything. 157 00:08:45,318 --> 00:08:47,314 Worked as a nanny. Moved around a lot. 158 00:08:47,315 --> 00:08:49,304 Bunch of failed relationships. 159 00:08:49,305 --> 00:08:51,329 And then what? 160 00:08:51,330 --> 00:08:54,313 God spoke to you? You heard the calling? 161 00:08:54,314 --> 00:08:57,343 Something like that. 162 00:08:59,351 --> 00:09:01,307 Does there have to be some dramatic moment 163 00:09:01,308 --> 00:09:02,355 where the skies part? 164 00:09:02,356 --> 00:09:05,296 Usually, yeah. 165 00:09:05,297 --> 00:09:08,318 Is that what happened to you when you entered the seminary? 166 00:09:10,322 --> 00:09:12,321 Mom drank, dad worked. 167 00:09:12,322 --> 00:09:14,371 They stuck me in catholic school. 168 00:09:14,372 --> 00:09:18,296 Priests and nuns were the closest I had to family. 169 00:09:18,297 --> 00:09:21,279 Turned out that wasn't much of a reason to join the priesthood. 170 00:09:21,280 --> 00:09:22,343 Is that why you left? 171 00:09:24,334 --> 00:09:26,301 Something like that. 172 00:09:33,314 --> 00:09:35,330 I think I may throw up. 173 00:09:46,318 --> 00:09:48,354 What's wrong with me? 174 00:09:48,355 --> 00:09:52,297 Not a fungal infection. 175 00:09:59,355 --> 00:10:02,317 You're probably wondering, why the soda balloons? 176 00:10:02,318 --> 00:10:03,329 I'm not. 177 00:10:03,330 --> 00:10:05,363 Well, I'll tell you. 178 00:10:05,364 --> 00:10:07,304 You're not the only one 179 00:10:07,305 --> 00:10:08,332 whose life spiraled out of control 180 00:10:08,333 --> 00:10:10,307 when you got knifed in the ventricle. 181 00:10:10,308 --> 00:10:11,320 Taub has decided... 182 00:10:11,321 --> 00:10:12,368 I need help with my patient. 183 00:10:12,369 --> 00:10:14,300 She's vomiting. 184 00:10:14,301 --> 00:10:15,364 That's not from a fungal infection. 185 00:10:15,365 --> 00:10:17,283 What are you planning to do 186 00:10:17,284 --> 00:10:18,314 now that you're not working for me? 187 00:10:18,315 --> 00:10:20,313 I have no idea. 188 00:10:20,314 --> 00:10:22,300 Almost dying's been clarifying. 189 00:10:22,301 --> 00:10:23,305 I can do anything. 190 00:10:23,306 --> 00:10:25,304 You can do anything. 191 00:10:25,305 --> 00:10:27,278 So you come back to the same building 192 00:10:27,279 --> 00:10:28,368 you've worked in for years. 193 00:10:28,369 --> 00:10:31,313 Guess you can cross that off your bucket list. 194 00:10:31,314 --> 00:10:33,301 Can we get to my patient sometime soon? 195 00:10:33,302 --> 00:10:36,346 As soon as you admit that you're a confused mess, sure. 196 00:10:36,347 --> 00:10:38,296 You'll help me. 197 00:10:38,297 --> 00:10:40,305 'Cause even though you don't find my case interesting, 198 00:10:40,306 --> 00:10:42,309 you find my interest in it interesting. 199 00:10:43,351 --> 00:10:47,283 Well, when you put it that way... 200 00:10:47,284 --> 00:10:48,355 Ascending colangitis. 201 00:10:53,280 --> 00:10:54,317 Missed me. 202 00:10:54,318 --> 00:10:55,314 Can't be, bilirubin's normal. 203 00:10:55,315 --> 00:10:58,346 Clinical signs can show up days 204 00:10:58,347 --> 00:11:01,318 before lab signs. 205 00:11:02,338 --> 00:11:04,284 Ha ha ha! 206 00:11:05,347 --> 00:11:06,367 This is great. 207 00:11:06,368 --> 00:11:08,338 We should make this a regular thing. 208 00:11:12,309 --> 00:11:14,280 She can't feel her foot at all. 209 00:11:18,368 --> 00:11:20,304 What does this mean? 210 00:11:20,305 --> 00:11:22,280 It means I've got to spend more time 211 00:11:22,281 --> 00:11:24,338 consulting with a colleague. 212 00:11:29,248 --> 00:11:31,251 17-ketosteroid levels are low. 213 00:11:31,252 --> 00:11:34,193 How can he be hyper-sexual? 214 00:11:34,194 --> 00:11:36,250 He tried to tongue-kiss Park when you were closer. 215 00:11:36,251 --> 00:11:38,202 You think his sexuality is normal? 216 00:11:38,203 --> 00:11:41,155 I need more help. My patient has a new symptom. 217 00:11:41,156 --> 00:11:42,197 Ischemic foot. 218 00:11:42,198 --> 00:11:44,201 Get the lecture out of your system 219 00:11:44,202 --> 00:11:46,181 so we can talk about my case. 220 00:11:48,181 --> 00:11:53,159 Let me start with an allegory. 221 00:11:53,160 --> 00:11:54,218 Ah. 222 00:11:59,177 --> 00:12:00,214 Okay, I'm curious. 223 00:12:00,215 --> 00:12:03,238 Your overreaction to your stabbing 224 00:12:03,239 --> 00:12:07,159 is to blame me even as you are drawn to me. 225 00:12:07,160 --> 00:12:10,193 Taub's is to take moronic self-defense classes 226 00:12:10,194 --> 00:12:12,238 that won't defend him against anything. 227 00:12:12,239 --> 00:12:14,201 Krav Maga. 228 00:12:14,202 --> 00:12:15,229 Which helped me block your shot 229 00:12:15,230 --> 00:12:16,244 and will continue to help me 230 00:12:16,245 --> 00:12:18,176 defend myself in a building 231 00:12:18,177 --> 00:12:19,223 full of drugged-up strangers. 232 00:12:19,224 --> 00:12:22,238 Taub has to accept that by instinct and genetics 233 00:12:22,239 --> 00:12:24,172 he is a coward, 234 00:12:24,173 --> 00:12:25,200 who's better off running and hiding 235 00:12:25,201 --> 00:12:26,239 at the first sign of danger. 236 00:12:26,240 --> 00:12:29,238 I've already fended off six of your blitzkriegs in a row. 237 00:12:29,239 --> 00:12:31,243 And the seventh? And the eighth? 238 00:12:31,244 --> 00:12:33,230 And the Nth? 239 00:12:33,231 --> 00:12:34,244 If you get him, what's that gonna prove? 240 00:12:34,245 --> 00:12:36,238 That unexpected things happen. 241 00:12:36,239 --> 00:12:39,238 By definition, no class can teach you to expect them. 242 00:12:39,239 --> 00:12:42,243 Which is why Taub is idiotic to study them, 243 00:12:42,244 --> 00:12:45,176 and you're idiotic to attach any significance to them. 244 00:12:45,177 --> 00:12:46,238 Blood clot. 245 00:12:46,239 --> 00:12:49,243 Her D-dimer's normal. 246 00:12:49,244 --> 00:12:51,177 On the other hand... 247 00:12:53,164 --> 00:12:55,218 Yah! 248 00:12:57,194 --> 00:12:59,166 What if he's right about the blockage 249 00:12:59,167 --> 00:13:00,231 but wrong about the cause? 250 00:13:00,232 --> 00:13:02,213 Vasospasm. 251 00:13:02,214 --> 00:13:05,184 That explains everything but the lymph nodes. 252 00:13:05,185 --> 00:13:06,252 And any minor infection could have caused those. 253 00:13:06,253 --> 00:13:09,231 Calcium channel blocker to treat. 254 00:13:20,198 --> 00:13:22,176 Are you okay? 255 00:13:22,177 --> 00:13:23,248 I almost got you killed by bringing a scalpel 256 00:13:23,249 --> 00:13:25,180 into that room. 257 00:13:25,181 --> 00:13:26,202 I could feel better about that. 258 00:13:26,203 --> 00:13:28,222 You saved my life too. 259 00:13:28,223 --> 00:13:31,247 I think the ledger's clear. 260 00:13:31,248 --> 00:13:34,184 But how can you not be traumatized? 261 00:13:34,185 --> 00:13:36,230 Can't change what happened. 262 00:13:36,231 --> 00:13:39,205 Can only make better choices from here. 263 00:13:39,206 --> 00:13:40,252 So you're zen about it 264 00:13:40,253 --> 00:13:43,177 but won't let go of your anger toward House? 265 00:13:46,239 --> 00:13:48,209 I'm seeing a trauma counselor. 266 00:13:48,210 --> 00:13:49,244 I think you should too. 267 00:13:49,245 --> 00:13:52,167 I'm okay. 268 00:13:52,168 --> 00:13:54,198 Just knowing you're there for me is enough. 269 00:14:02,252 --> 00:14:04,217 Convent lets you have this? 270 00:14:04,218 --> 00:14:07,251 I borrowed it from one of the nurses. 271 00:14:07,252 --> 00:14:09,230 I'm still on temporary vows. 272 00:14:09,231 --> 00:14:12,247 It may be the last time I hear Eminem for a while. 273 00:14:12,248 --> 00:14:15,197 You're using an iPod. 274 00:14:15,198 --> 00:14:17,231 But I've never seen you use rosary beads. 275 00:14:22,206 --> 00:14:24,243 What day did Jesus die? 276 00:14:24,244 --> 00:14:27,176 I know, one gospel says passover, 277 00:14:27,177 --> 00:14:29,213 another says the day before. 278 00:14:29,214 --> 00:14:30,231 How many times did the cock crow 279 00:14:30,232 --> 00:14:32,251 before Peter's third denial? 280 00:14:32,252 --> 00:14:33,251 Once or twice? 281 00:14:33,252 --> 00:14:36,243 You can't argue away my faith. 282 00:14:36,244 --> 00:14:37,247 Why? 283 00:14:37,248 --> 00:14:39,201 Because it's so strong 284 00:14:39,202 --> 00:14:40,252 even plain contradictions... 285 00:14:40,253 --> 00:14:43,238 because it's not that strong. 286 00:14:43,239 --> 00:14:45,251 I'm not saying I don't have faith. 287 00:14:45,252 --> 00:14:50,180 I just haven't felt the calling yet. 288 00:14:50,181 --> 00:14:53,188 No one joins the clergy without having that epiphany. 289 00:14:53,189 --> 00:14:56,167 That God's love is speaking to you directly. 290 00:14:56,168 --> 00:15:00,167 It's the silence, the contemplation, 291 00:15:00,168 --> 00:15:02,201 the order. 292 00:15:02,202 --> 00:15:03,239 I need them. 293 00:15:06,198 --> 00:15:09,176 Hoping everything else will come later. 294 00:15:09,177 --> 00:15:11,205 That's not an answer. 295 00:15:11,206 --> 00:15:13,243 If you want silence, you can get ear plugs. 296 00:15:13,244 --> 00:15:16,176 I tried the outside world. 297 00:15:16,177 --> 00:15:18,176 It wasn't enough. 298 00:15:18,177 --> 00:15:19,202 Have you been married? 299 00:15:19,203 --> 00:15:20,230 No. 300 00:15:20,231 --> 00:15:22,238 No kids. You never found a career. 301 00:15:22,239 --> 00:15:25,194 Doesn't sound like the outside world got much of a try. 302 00:15:27,181 --> 00:15:30,197 What you're headed towards now, 303 00:15:30,198 --> 00:15:33,176 14 hours a day in silent prayer, 304 00:15:33,177 --> 00:15:35,217 never having a family, 305 00:15:35,218 --> 00:15:38,163 never touching another human being. 306 00:15:38,164 --> 00:15:40,185 Just because that's what you'd miss the most. 307 00:15:42,164 --> 00:15:44,218 The nurses talk. 308 00:15:47,248 --> 00:15:49,247 Nothing's wrong with having fun. 309 00:15:49,248 --> 00:15:53,172 They said you were almost killed three weeks ago. 310 00:15:53,173 --> 00:15:55,209 You go right back to fun? 311 00:15:55,210 --> 00:15:58,213 Is that why you wanna be a nun? 312 00:15:58,214 --> 00:16:00,163 Someone broke your heart. 313 00:16:00,164 --> 00:16:04,222 No. 314 00:16:04,223 --> 00:16:08,168 I'm just looking for something more. 315 00:16:10,198 --> 00:16:11,252 So am I. 316 00:16:22,202 --> 00:16:24,244 I'm late for work in the clinic. 317 00:16:43,160 --> 00:16:44,222 Really? 318 00:16:44,223 --> 00:16:46,172 George Washinbaum? 319 00:16:46,173 --> 00:16:48,226 He was a character in the Flintsteins. 320 00:16:48,227 --> 00:16:52,206 Just hiding out till House leaves the cafeteria. 321 00:16:56,223 --> 00:16:58,176 The self-defense classes, 322 00:16:58,177 --> 00:17:00,222 you think they're making any kind of difference? 323 00:17:00,223 --> 00:17:03,213 Not as much as House's surprise attacks. 324 00:17:03,214 --> 00:17:05,235 He thinks three steps ahead, so I do too. 325 00:17:07,218 --> 00:17:09,183 Which is why you should accept his apology 326 00:17:09,184 --> 00:17:10,223 and come back on the team. 327 00:17:10,224 --> 00:17:12,251 He's annoying, he's maddening. 328 00:17:12,252 --> 00:17:15,210 But he makes us all better. 329 00:17:17,235 --> 00:17:20,173 Note to self. 330 00:17:23,177 --> 00:17:24,235 Foot color's good. 331 00:17:24,236 --> 00:17:28,188 Arterial pulse is good. 332 00:17:28,189 --> 00:17:29,237 Capillary refill's good. 333 00:17:29,238 --> 00:17:31,223 And her shoulder pain is all gone. 334 00:17:31,224 --> 00:17:34,243 Looks like you're ready to go home. 335 00:17:34,244 --> 00:17:37,202 I'll get the car and meet you out front. 336 00:17:40,214 --> 00:17:43,180 I'd say I'm in the book, 337 00:17:43,181 --> 00:17:45,252 but not the one you'll be reading from now on. 338 00:17:53,198 --> 00:17:57,251 Six years ago, I was a nanny in Honolulu 339 00:17:57,252 --> 00:18:00,226 for this beautiful two-year-old boy. 340 00:18:00,227 --> 00:18:02,243 I loved him. 341 00:18:02,244 --> 00:18:04,243 Probably spent more time with him 342 00:18:04,244 --> 00:18:07,156 than his own parents. 343 00:18:08,231 --> 00:18:13,201 One day I was in the park talking with another nanny. 344 00:18:13,202 --> 00:18:17,251 He wandered out of the sandbox into the street, 345 00:18:17,252 --> 00:18:21,185 into the path of a moving car. 346 00:18:23,214 --> 00:18:25,181 That could have happened to anyone. 347 00:18:25,182 --> 00:18:27,247 I don't think so. 348 00:18:27,248 --> 00:18:30,209 And even if it did, they'd blame themselves 349 00:18:30,210 --> 00:18:32,230 for the rest of their lives too. 350 00:18:32,231 --> 00:18:36,234 You shouldn't. 351 00:18:36,235 --> 00:18:39,238 You shouldn't run from what can still be a good life. 352 00:18:39,239 --> 00:18:42,205 I'm running to God. 353 00:18:42,206 --> 00:18:44,167 After what happened to you, 354 00:18:44,168 --> 00:18:46,209 don't you wanna remake your life? 355 00:18:46,210 --> 00:18:49,239 Not by hiding myself away. 356 00:18:51,231 --> 00:18:54,218 I hope it works out for you. 357 00:18:58,202 --> 00:19:01,234 It is gonna be hard. 358 00:19:01,235 --> 00:19:04,177 Not touching anyone. 359 00:19:46,653 --> 00:19:50,972 Who knew mother inferior was a smoking hottie. 360 00:19:50,978 --> 00:19:52,674 No wonder you're playing handsies with her. 361 00:19:52,675 --> 00:19:54,677 You think I'm hitting on a nun? 362 00:19:55,303 --> 00:19:57,390 Angry at God or I just need a challenge? 363 00:19:57,391 --> 00:20:00,332 Or you're terrified of intimacy, 364 00:20:00,333 --> 00:20:02,324 which is why you're a serial slut. 365 00:20:02,325 --> 00:20:05,377 But right now you're grasping at an emotional life raft. 366 00:20:05,378 --> 00:20:09,356 Ideally someone for whom intimacy's not an option. 367 00:20:09,357 --> 00:20:11,347 That actually makes sense, which I can't say 368 00:20:11,348 --> 00:20:12,385 about anything else you've been doing. 369 00:20:12,386 --> 00:20:14,374 I'm not emotionally involved with her. 370 00:20:14,375 --> 00:20:16,390 And much as I'd love to hear you contradict me, 371 00:20:16,391 --> 00:20:19,390 I have a 7:30 appointment to explore my intimacy issues 372 00:20:19,391 --> 00:20:22,324 at La Scala. 373 00:20:24,312 --> 00:20:25,383 I'm talking to this agent. He's a bit of a sleaze. 374 00:20:25,384 --> 00:20:28,311 But he's really excited about representing me. 375 00:20:28,312 --> 00:20:30,314 Although he can't take on any new clients right now, 376 00:20:30,315 --> 00:20:31,357 he's trying to get mean audition 377 00:20:31,358 --> 00:20:33,319 for one of those online soaps. 378 00:20:33,320 --> 00:20:34,374 Have you ever watched one of those? 379 00:20:38,312 --> 00:20:39,353 Am I boring you? 380 00:20:43,391 --> 00:20:46,332 Unfortunately, yeah. 381 00:20:46,333 --> 00:20:47,383 Sorry. 382 00:20:59,391 --> 00:21:01,362 Hi. 383 00:21:03,370 --> 00:21:07,294 You're not supposed to be here. 384 00:21:07,295 --> 00:21:07,391 Or anywhere. 385 00:21:07,392 --> 00:21:10,312 Yeah. 386 00:21:12,333 --> 00:21:14,344 You were right. 387 00:21:14,345 --> 00:21:16,345 I was running away. 388 00:21:59,328 --> 00:22:01,370 Oh, now you're shy. 389 00:22:03,374 --> 00:22:07,295 It's brighter in the morning. 390 00:22:12,383 --> 00:22:15,340 So are we gonna spend the rest of eternity 391 00:22:15,341 --> 00:22:18,315 in a lake of fire while pointy-tailed demons 392 00:22:18,316 --> 00:22:20,366 poke at us with sticks? 393 00:22:24,357 --> 00:22:26,373 This is a little scary for me. 394 00:22:26,374 --> 00:22:28,386 I had a whole life planned. 395 00:22:28,387 --> 00:22:32,369 Not that I wasn't struggling with it. 396 00:22:32,370 --> 00:22:34,319 And then I met you. 397 00:22:34,320 --> 00:22:38,382 Don't worry, I know you're not the relationship type. 398 00:22:38,383 --> 00:22:41,294 I'm not not the relationship type. 399 00:22:41,295 --> 00:22:42,328 I was married once. 400 00:22:42,329 --> 00:22:44,327 Relax. 401 00:22:44,328 --> 00:22:45,378 You're fine. 402 00:22:48,307 --> 00:22:49,378 So what's next for you? 403 00:22:52,353 --> 00:22:55,352 I have to find a place to live. 404 00:22:55,353 --> 00:22:58,319 Get my old job back. 405 00:22:58,320 --> 00:23:01,365 Sure, I'll feel guilty, start doubting. 406 00:23:01,366 --> 00:23:03,349 As long as you keep dealing with your doubts 407 00:23:03,350 --> 00:23:05,345 in the same way then... 408 00:23:07,362 --> 00:23:09,377 Moira? 409 00:23:09,378 --> 00:23:12,316 I'm sorry, did you say something? 410 00:23:14,303 --> 00:23:15,382 Your neck. 411 00:23:15,383 --> 00:23:17,348 What? 412 00:23:17,349 --> 00:23:18,383 Are your ears ringing? 413 00:23:18,384 --> 00:23:22,374 Yeah. What does that mean? 414 00:23:24,787 --> 00:23:28,006 We've got to get you back to the hospital right away. 415 00:23:28,051 --> 00:23:29,778 The artery that's bringing blood to your brain, 416 00:23:29,787 --> 00:23:31,114 it's coming apart. 417 00:23:31,342 --> 00:23:32,969 Means you could stroke. 418 00:23:33,035 --> 00:23:34,102 I've paged a team of our best doctors. 419 00:23:34,103 --> 00:23:36,092 I don't have to cough as much. 420 00:23:36,093 --> 00:23:38,122 It's clotted up. 421 00:23:38,123 --> 00:23:40,072 Is that bad? 422 00:23:40,073 --> 00:23:43,056 We're almost there. 423 00:23:44,089 --> 00:23:47,122 Get me her O-two level. 424 00:23:47,123 --> 00:23:49,055 What are you doing? 425 00:23:49,056 --> 00:23:50,127 I want to make sure I can position her wrist properly. 426 00:23:50,128 --> 00:23:52,098 - For what? - A.B.G. 427 00:23:52,101 --> 00:23:55,109 I don't need an A.B.G. Just get a pulse OX. 428 00:23:55,110 --> 00:23:57,109 I'll do it. Grab a consent form. 429 00:23:57,110 --> 00:23:59,126 Go! 430 00:23:59,127 --> 00:24:01,123 We need to operate right now, okay? 431 00:24:01,124 --> 00:24:03,064 Good to operate. 432 00:24:05,052 --> 00:24:08,047 Repeat this, no ifs, ands, or buts about it. 433 00:24:08,048 --> 00:24:11,047 No about it and no ifs. 434 00:24:11,048 --> 00:24:12,123 Get her into O.R. 11. 435 00:24:18,971 --> 00:24:19,971 Carotid dissection, 436 00:24:19,972 --> 00:24:21,979 four-inch pulsatile mass in her neck, 437 00:24:21,980 --> 00:24:23,264 and some Broca's aphasia. 438 00:24:23,264 --> 00:24:24,280 It's got to be a clot 439 00:24:24,281 --> 00:24:25,282 keeping her from bleeding out. 440 00:24:25,283 --> 00:24:27,231 Pulse? 441 00:24:27,232 --> 00:24:28,234 Bounding, four-plus. 442 00:24:28,235 --> 00:24:29,252 It was a three-plus 20 minutes ago. 443 00:24:29,253 --> 00:24:31,247 20? 444 00:24:31,535 --> 00:24:33,519 Thought she just got here. 445 00:24:35,569 --> 00:24:37,559 That blood looks pretty dry. 446 00:24:37,560 --> 00:24:40,518 Cut yourself shaving? 447 00:24:40,519 --> 00:24:42,526 You know, that can happen 448 00:24:42,527 --> 00:24:45,538 when the nun you woke up with coughs blood on you. 449 00:24:45,539 --> 00:24:48,497 You slept with a nun? 450 00:24:48,498 --> 00:24:50,518 Forget nun, you slept with a patient? 451 00:24:50,519 --> 00:24:51,565 Former, to both. 452 00:24:51,566 --> 00:24:54,526 Internal neck trauma, that's impressive. 453 00:24:54,527 --> 00:24:56,518 It's happened to me a few times. 454 00:24:56,519 --> 00:24:58,555 Up high. 455 00:24:58,556 --> 00:25:00,556 Dr. Chase. 456 00:25:02,519 --> 00:25:04,518 Clot's broken. 457 00:25:04,519 --> 00:25:05,546 Bring her in and pack her nose. 458 00:25:05,547 --> 00:25:07,502 I'm gonna need number three Vicryls. 459 00:25:07,503 --> 00:25:09,530 I'm gonna fix this. 460 00:25:09,531 --> 00:25:10,529 You're not gonna operate on her. 461 00:25:10,530 --> 00:25:12,502 Kapur and Carlyle are unavailable. 462 00:25:12,503 --> 00:25:14,522 Reilly's done far fewer dissections than I have. 463 00:25:14,523 --> 00:25:16,529 He's also slept with her far fewer times than you have. 464 00:25:16,530 --> 00:25:17,556 Your judgment's compromised. 465 00:25:17,557 --> 00:25:19,484 I spent the night with her. 466 00:25:19,485 --> 00:25:20,523 Doesn't change how I make an incision. 467 00:25:20,524 --> 00:25:22,560 Tell him! 468 00:25:24,101 --> 00:25:27,117 Do the surgery. 469 00:25:27,118 --> 00:25:28,155 You're trying to score points with him 470 00:25:28,156 --> 00:25:30,159 at the risk of a patient's life. 471 00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:32,110 He's the better surgeon. 472 00:25:34,164 --> 00:25:35,187 Vascular clamp. 473 00:25:35,188 --> 00:25:37,172 You're not gonna put her on bypass? 474 00:25:37,173 --> 00:25:39,104 It'd take a half hour to set up. 475 00:25:39,105 --> 00:25:40,139 You clamp now, she could stroke out. 476 00:25:40,140 --> 00:25:42,142 She's already got neurological symptoms. 477 00:25:42,203 --> 00:25:44,352 We wait 30 minutes, she'll definitely have brain damage. 478 00:25:44,411 --> 00:25:46,463 You're trying to make sure she's either perfect or dead. 479 00:25:46,464 --> 00:25:47,455 She's not going to die. 480 00:25:47,456 --> 00:25:49,417 If I get this done in five minutes, 481 00:25:49,418 --> 00:25:50,451 she won't stroke out. 482 00:25:50,452 --> 00:25:51,471 You don't know that you will. 483 00:25:51,472 --> 00:25:52,494 And you can't know because you can't 484 00:25:52,495 --> 00:25:55,468 think clearly about her. 485 00:25:55,469 --> 00:25:57,499 Vascular clamp. 486 00:26:04,459 --> 00:26:08,462 Occlusion time 9:46 and 23 seconds. 487 00:26:08,463 --> 00:26:10,459 Vascular scissors. 488 00:26:45,463 --> 00:26:48,438 We're over five minutes. 489 00:26:49,443 --> 00:26:51,463 Ultrasound. 490 00:26:57,443 --> 00:27:00,404 Good flow. Lighten the anesthesia. 491 00:27:00,405 --> 00:27:02,421 You're not gonna close the wound first? 492 00:27:02,422 --> 00:27:04,488 No. 493 00:27:17,459 --> 00:27:19,467 Can you hear me? 494 00:27:22,467 --> 00:27:24,446 Repeat this, 495 00:27:24,447 --> 00:27:27,446 no ifs, ands, or buts. 496 00:27:27,447 --> 00:27:31,747 No ifs, ands, or buts. 497 00:27:37,635 --> 00:27:40,623 I'm sorry about before. 498 00:27:42,977 --> 00:27:45,043 You're scared, aren't you? 499 00:27:45,044 --> 00:27:47,000 That's why you wanted companionship. 500 00:27:47,001 --> 00:27:49,031 That's why you cried out when House shot at Taub. 501 00:27:49,032 --> 00:27:51,047 What exactly are you scared of? 502 00:27:51,048 --> 00:27:53,009 A needle stick? 503 00:27:53,010 --> 00:27:55,005 Some other nut pulling a scalpel? 504 00:27:55,006 --> 00:27:58,988 I'm scared of everything. 505 00:27:58,989 --> 00:28:01,017 It sucks that there was a stabbing. 506 00:28:01,018 --> 00:28:02,959 But you'll get over it. 507 00:28:02,960 --> 00:28:03,997 Like you have? 508 00:28:03,998 --> 00:28:06,051 You weren't even there. 509 00:28:06,052 --> 00:28:09,022 I know, I... I left the room. 510 00:28:09,023 --> 00:28:10,967 It was pure luck. 511 00:28:10,968 --> 00:28:13,998 I was in the room. That was pure luck too. 512 00:28:17,018 --> 00:28:19,051 I get that you're scared and guilty. 513 00:28:19,052 --> 00:28:20,997 You're still a doctor. 514 00:28:20,998 --> 00:28:23,039 I don't have time to teach you to act like one. 515 00:28:28,052 --> 00:28:30,001 We removed the artery. 516 00:28:30,002 --> 00:28:30,998 I found nodules. 517 00:28:30,999 --> 00:28:32,988 Could mean lupus. 518 00:28:32,989 --> 00:28:34,002 Negative A.N.A. 519 00:28:34,003 --> 00:28:36,017 Where are you going? 520 00:28:36,018 --> 00:28:38,043 Great thing about assigning Taub 521 00:28:38,044 --> 00:28:40,043 fraudulent lab work is you know exactly 522 00:28:40,044 --> 00:28:42,034 where he's gonna end up. 523 00:28:42,035 --> 00:28:43,997 Great thing about assigning Taub 524 00:28:43,998 --> 00:28:46,005 obviously fraudulent lab work 525 00:28:46,006 --> 00:28:48,994 is you get to watch his inner paranoiac at work. 526 00:28:56,052 --> 00:28:59,047 And then... 527 00:28:59,048 --> 00:29:01,051 Two to the head. 528 00:29:01,052 --> 00:29:02,997 Can we talk about my patient? 529 00:29:02,998 --> 00:29:04,039 Quite a journey. 530 00:29:04,040 --> 00:29:06,051 Starts with a surgical tool in your heart 531 00:29:06,052 --> 00:29:08,008 and ends with a surgeon's tool in a nun. 532 00:29:08,009 --> 00:29:09,035 What's the plan? 533 00:29:09,036 --> 00:29:11,001 Plan's to cure her. 534 00:29:11,002 --> 00:29:13,997 Well, if it's not meaningless sex, 535 00:29:13,998 --> 00:29:15,973 kinda screams out for an end game. 536 00:29:15,974 --> 00:29:18,017 You're the dog that's chasing the popemobile. 537 00:29:18,018 --> 00:29:19,977 You sure you want... 538 00:29:21,035 --> 00:29:22,973 Oh, my God. 539 00:29:25,027 --> 00:29:27,972 Taub is interrogating the janitor. 540 00:29:27,973 --> 00:29:31,005 He must think that I hired him to attack... 541 00:29:31,006 --> 00:29:35,009 actually, why didn't I do that? 542 00:29:35,010 --> 00:29:38,034 Plaques could be confused for nodules. 543 00:29:38,035 --> 00:29:40,031 - Which would mean... - Syphilis. 544 00:29:40,034 --> 00:29:42,997 Explains the shoulder and foot involvement. 545 00:29:42,998 --> 00:29:44,972 Hope you practiced 546 00:29:44,973 --> 00:29:46,956 the immaculate contraception. 547 00:29:51,052 --> 00:29:53,052 Lock and load. 548 00:29:55,973 --> 00:29:57,034 Boo-yah! 549 00:29:57,035 --> 00:29:59,955 Pfft! 550 00:29:59,956 --> 00:30:02,006 Boo-yah to you too. 551 00:30:05,018 --> 00:30:07,967 But I hadn't had sex in years. 552 00:30:07,968 --> 00:30:09,010 Tertiary syphilis means you've had the disease 553 00:30:09,011 --> 00:30:10,967 for at least that long. 554 00:30:10,968 --> 00:30:13,005 Does that mean you also have it? 555 00:30:13,006 --> 00:30:15,964 Probably not contagious at this point. 556 00:30:19,044 --> 00:30:21,034 Can it cause hallucinations? 557 00:30:21,035 --> 00:30:23,052 It's unlikely. Why? 558 00:30:26,006 --> 00:30:28,034 While I was on the operating table, 559 00:30:28,035 --> 00:30:31,009 it didn't feel like a dream. 560 00:30:31,010 --> 00:30:36,026 I saw the boy who I was caring for. 561 00:30:36,027 --> 00:30:39,997 The one who died. 562 00:30:39,998 --> 00:30:43,001 He walked right up to me. 563 00:30:43,002 --> 00:30:45,001 What did he say? 564 00:30:45,002 --> 00:30:48,026 He just held my hand. 565 00:30:48,027 --> 00:30:52,005 It was like he forgave me. 566 00:30:52,006 --> 00:30:53,998 Do you think that's crazy? 567 00:30:55,989 --> 00:30:59,009 I think it should give you solace, 568 00:30:59,010 --> 00:31:03,027 help you to move on. 569 00:31:08,035 --> 00:31:10,960 You slept with your patient? 570 00:31:13,985 --> 00:31:15,963 You're off the case. 571 00:31:15,964 --> 00:31:18,009 I saved her from brain damage. 572 00:31:18,010 --> 00:31:20,006 You think my judgment's the least bit compromised? 573 00:31:20,007 --> 00:31:21,967 She's still sick. 574 00:31:21,968 --> 00:31:23,006 If she dies, we'll be in the middle 575 00:31:23,007 --> 00:31:24,997 of a brand-new investigation. 576 00:31:24,998 --> 00:31:26,964 This is about you covering your own ass. 577 00:31:26,965 --> 00:31:29,009 I gave you time, Leeway, 578 00:31:29,010 --> 00:31:31,959 and you decided to do whatever the hell you wanted. 579 00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:33,016 House can dance all over the rules, 580 00:31:33,017 --> 00:31:35,010 gets me knifed, and he gets a pass. 581 00:31:35,011 --> 00:31:37,013 I break a rule, no one gets hurt, 582 00:31:37,014 --> 00:31:39,005 but you kick me off my own case? 583 00:31:39,006 --> 00:31:41,052 Unfortunately, yes. 584 00:31:46,044 --> 00:31:47,988 I'm sorry. 585 00:31:47,989 --> 00:31:49,052 I took that scalpel for you. 586 00:31:49,053 --> 00:31:51,022 That's why I did this. 587 00:31:51,023 --> 00:31:53,017 Three weeks ago, 588 00:31:53,018 --> 00:31:55,002 you never would have slept with a patient. 589 00:31:55,003 --> 00:31:57,981 And you never would have operated on her after. 590 00:31:59,031 --> 00:32:00,993 You need help. 591 00:32:00,994 --> 00:32:02,959 I need to get away from House 592 00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:04,048 and everything that reminds me of him. 593 00:32:04,049 --> 00:32:05,984 By breaking the rules, 594 00:32:05,985 --> 00:32:08,017 not caring what anyone else thinks. 595 00:32:08,018 --> 00:32:11,956 You're gonna get away from him by turning into him? 596 00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:20,981 It hurts. 597 00:32:31,006 --> 00:32:33,034 Right upper quadrant, pain and distension. 598 00:32:33,035 --> 00:32:36,038 What's wrong with my stomach? 599 00:32:36,039 --> 00:32:37,038 Nothing. 600 00:32:37,039 --> 00:32:39,998 This is your liver. 601 00:32:43,554 --> 00:32:44,554 The liver failure could be 602 00:32:44,555 --> 00:32:47,541 from intraoperative hypotension. 603 00:32:47,542 --> 00:32:48,558 Checked the anesthesia sheet, 604 00:32:48,559 --> 00:32:50,287 pressure was fine throughout. Thrombus? 605 00:32:50,375 --> 00:32:52,298 That voice in the hall that none of us 606 00:32:52,299 --> 00:32:56,778 have any reason to be listening to is not surprisingly wrong. 607 00:32:57,124 --> 00:32:59,088 Abdominal ultrasound was negative. 608 00:32:59,089 --> 00:33:00,128 Then we have to assume liver failure 609 00:33:00,129 --> 00:33:04,043 is just another symptom of whatever she's got. 610 00:33:04,044 --> 00:33:05,090 Trousseau's syndrome could send clots, 611 00:33:05,091 --> 00:33:07,035 cause the ischemic foot. 612 00:33:07,036 --> 00:33:09,043 Add the enlarged lymph node, macrocytosis. 613 00:33:09,044 --> 00:33:11,119 Disseminated T-cell lymphoma. 614 00:33:11,120 --> 00:33:13,093 Wilson said it wasn't cancer. 615 00:33:13,094 --> 00:33:16,073 Wilson says it's not breast cancer. 616 00:33:16,074 --> 00:33:18,052 Sarcoidosis. 617 00:33:18,053 --> 00:33:19,063 Normal ace level. 618 00:33:19,064 --> 00:33:20,103 Highly insensitive for sarcoid. 619 00:33:20,104 --> 00:33:22,073 Negative chest X-rays aren't. 620 00:33:22,074 --> 00:33:23,111 Then we've got to biopsy. 621 00:33:23,112 --> 00:33:26,035 Yeah, Foreman's clearly wrong. 622 00:33:26,036 --> 00:33:28,073 You're clearly not grasping at straws 623 00:33:28,074 --> 00:33:30,102 'cause you're clearly not emotionally involved. 624 00:33:30,103 --> 00:33:34,031 I know you want to believe that this is something we can cure. 625 00:33:34,032 --> 00:33:35,106 It's not. 626 00:33:35,107 --> 00:33:37,065 I'm sorry. 627 00:33:48,107 --> 00:33:51,077 How soon will they know if it's cancer? 628 00:33:51,078 --> 00:33:53,069 Within hours. 629 00:33:53,070 --> 00:33:55,098 And if it is? 630 00:33:55,099 --> 00:33:58,110 There's always chemo. 631 00:33:58,111 --> 00:34:02,048 You say that like it's not gonna work. 632 00:34:02,049 --> 00:34:05,039 Could extend your life. 633 00:34:05,040 --> 00:34:06,070 Years? 634 00:34:12,070 --> 00:34:14,061 I'll be here as much as you need. 635 00:34:18,040 --> 00:34:21,074 You still never told me why you left the seminary. 636 00:34:24,090 --> 00:34:26,081 Mary Knoller. 637 00:34:26,082 --> 00:34:30,031 Wife of the groundskeeper. 638 00:34:30,032 --> 00:34:33,060 He caught me with her, got me with a rake. 639 00:34:33,061 --> 00:34:35,115 Those scars on my ass you may have noticed. 640 00:34:37,057 --> 00:34:40,060 Why didn't you tell me that before? 641 00:34:40,061 --> 00:34:42,039 Because it was so shallow. 642 00:34:42,040 --> 00:34:43,074 I wasn't exactly wrestling 643 00:34:43,075 --> 00:34:45,089 with great theological questions. 644 00:34:45,090 --> 00:34:48,031 I don't believe that. 645 00:34:48,032 --> 00:34:50,056 You don't sleep with the groundskeeper's wife, 646 00:34:50,057 --> 00:34:53,111 not unless you're struggling with whether you belong there. 647 00:34:57,070 --> 00:35:00,064 I always wanted to believe. 648 00:35:00,065 --> 00:35:03,093 Would have made my life a lot easier. 649 00:35:03,094 --> 00:35:05,119 It never took. 650 00:35:05,120 --> 00:35:08,081 Doesn't... 651 00:35:08,082 --> 00:35:11,048 Mean... 652 00:35:11,049 --> 00:35:12,110 It's too late. 653 00:35:12,111 --> 00:35:15,049 Are you having trouble talking, like before? 654 00:35:17,070 --> 00:35:19,089 I can get the words out. 655 00:35:19,090 --> 00:35:21,127 Just feels heavy when I do. 656 00:35:21,128 --> 00:35:23,073 Where? 657 00:35:23,074 --> 00:35:27,069 Wherever my chewing muscles are. 658 00:35:27,070 --> 00:35:29,065 I'll be right back. 659 00:35:34,124 --> 00:35:36,073 House finally got you. 660 00:35:36,074 --> 00:35:38,065 - He tried but... - I gotta go. 661 00:35:38,068 --> 00:35:40,070 You shoulda seen it. It was perfect. 662 00:35:44,481 --> 00:35:47,430 She has jaw claudication. 663 00:35:47,431 --> 00:35:49,423 If you only heard claudication and carotid dissection... 664 00:35:49,424 --> 00:35:53,422 I'd say giant cell arteritis. 665 00:35:53,624 --> 00:35:54,651 And I'd tell your former teammates 666 00:35:54,652 --> 00:35:55,716 to put her on steroids. 667 00:35:55,717 --> 00:35:57,707 She's gonna live. 668 00:35:57,708 --> 00:36:00,648 Yeah. 669 00:36:00,649 --> 00:36:01,708 And then what? 670 00:36:09,110 --> 00:36:11,021 They say my liver function's better. 671 00:36:11,084 --> 00:36:12,147 That I can get out of here soon. 672 00:36:12,998 --> 00:36:15,013 And when you do, 673 00:36:15,014 --> 00:36:17,021 I'm gonna take you to puerto escondido. 674 00:36:17,022 --> 00:36:19,929 Mexico? 675 00:36:19,930 --> 00:36:20,964 The Mexican pipeline. 676 00:36:20,965 --> 00:36:25,971 Early may is when the surf really picks up but... 677 00:36:25,972 --> 00:36:27,967 what's wrong? 678 00:36:27,968 --> 00:36:31,967 I spoke to the prioress. 679 00:36:31,968 --> 00:36:33,967 You're going back? 680 00:36:33,968 --> 00:36:35,987 I felt the calling. 681 00:36:35,988 --> 00:36:37,996 When you saw the boy. 682 00:36:37,997 --> 00:36:41,017 I felt God's love, his grace. 683 00:36:41,018 --> 00:36:43,971 I've been waiting my entire life for that. 684 00:36:43,972 --> 00:36:44,992 It's not real. 685 00:36:44,993 --> 00:36:47,001 I know you didn't feel anything when you almost died. 686 00:36:47,002 --> 00:36:47,725 I did. 687 00:36:47,822 --> 00:36:48,914 You felt oxygen depravation. 688 00:36:48,915 --> 00:36:51,871 You felt your brain releasing noradrenaline. 689 00:36:51,872 --> 00:36:53,859 You didn't say that before. 690 00:36:53,860 --> 00:36:56,859 I wanted you to move on with your life. 691 00:36:56,860 --> 00:36:58,838 I wanted to reassure you. 692 00:36:58,839 --> 00:37:00,821 I wanted you to feel better. 693 00:37:00,822 --> 00:37:03,821 And now you don't? 694 00:37:03,822 --> 00:37:06,829 Now... 695 00:37:06,830 --> 00:37:07,868 I think I love you. 696 00:37:19,834 --> 00:37:22,850 "Noradrenaline and near-death experiences." 697 00:37:22,851 --> 00:37:24,879 Oh, dear. 698 00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:26,833 You saw God? 699 00:37:26,834 --> 00:37:27,842 She did. 700 00:37:27,843 --> 00:37:28,880 She wants to go back to the monastery. 701 00:37:28,881 --> 00:37:32,846 So now you're preparing a Powerpoint presentation 702 00:37:32,847 --> 00:37:37,713 to keep her in your garden of earthly delights. You're an idiot. 703 00:37:37,731 --> 00:37:39,746 Because I found someone I love? 704 00:37:39,758 --> 00:37:40,817 Because you're an idiot. 705 00:37:40,818 --> 00:37:43,774 At least you two have that in common. 706 00:37:43,775 --> 00:37:45,791 Her feelings are based on a chemical process. 707 00:37:45,792 --> 00:37:46,779 They're gonna wear off. 708 00:37:46,780 --> 00:37:48,782 You just slept with her. 709 00:37:48,783 --> 00:37:50,799 Your brain is exploding with oxytocin. 710 00:37:50,800 --> 00:37:52,781 You think that's gonna last through the ages? 711 00:37:52,782 --> 00:37:53,790 She's throwing away her life 712 00:37:53,791 --> 00:37:54,817 because of blind faith. 713 00:37:54,818 --> 00:37:56,753 So are you! 714 00:37:56,754 --> 00:37:57,833 She's found something 715 00:37:57,834 --> 00:37:59,833 she wants to build her life around. 716 00:37:59,834 --> 00:38:02,757 It's a total illusion, but apparently she'll take 717 00:38:02,758 --> 00:38:03,800 a little ignorance with her bliss. 718 00:38:03,801 --> 00:38:05,778 And you want to take that away? 719 00:38:05,779 --> 00:38:06,794 How many times have you thrown the truth 720 00:38:06,795 --> 00:38:07,829 in people's faces? 721 00:38:07,830 --> 00:38:09,753 Because it's the truth, 722 00:38:09,754 --> 00:38:12,787 not because we're gonna live happily ever after. 723 00:38:12,788 --> 00:38:15,787 Either your relationship just blows up 724 00:38:15,788 --> 00:38:18,749 like every other non-magical romance, 725 00:38:18,750 --> 00:38:19,796 or she stays with you but blames you 726 00:38:19,797 --> 00:38:22,782 for stripping all the meaning out of her life. 727 00:38:22,783 --> 00:38:25,749 This has nothing to do with the truth. 728 00:38:25,750 --> 00:38:27,791 You don't like that I'm reassessing my life, 729 00:38:27,792 --> 00:38:29,799 that I want to change it, 730 00:38:29,800 --> 00:38:30,824 that I can. 731 00:38:30,825 --> 00:38:32,766 Anyone can screw up a life. 732 00:38:32,767 --> 00:38:33,815 I never said that wasn't possible. 733 00:38:33,816 --> 00:38:35,812 You're incapable of human connection, 734 00:38:35,813 --> 00:38:38,841 so you want everyone to be like you. 735 00:38:38,842 --> 00:38:41,788 If I wanted you to be like me... 736 00:38:45,788 --> 00:38:47,803 I would be urging you 737 00:38:47,804 --> 00:38:49,796 to make a stupid, stubborn decision 738 00:38:49,797 --> 00:38:52,833 that blows up your life and leaves you lonely and miserable. 739 00:38:59,771 --> 00:39:02,795 You reassess your life when you've made mistakes. 740 00:39:02,796 --> 00:39:05,775 You didn't. You just got stabbed. 741 00:40:04,838 --> 00:40:07,770 Don't look at the book. 742 00:40:07,771 --> 00:40:09,821 I haven't done a jugular line since my residency. 743 00:40:09,822 --> 00:40:11,846 I don't want to needle the carotid. 744 00:40:15,792 --> 00:40:16,817 What's the first step? 745 00:40:16,818 --> 00:40:19,816 Palpate the S.C.M. 746 00:40:19,817 --> 00:40:20,828 Where? 747 00:40:20,829 --> 00:40:23,821 Middle third of the neck. 748 00:40:54,804 --> 00:40:56,787 I'm happy I knew you. 749 00:40:56,788 --> 00:40:59,804 So am I. 750 00:41:16,750 --> 00:41:17,808 Robert. 751 00:42:14,800 --> 00:42:16,787 24-year-oldwater treatment worker 752 00:42:16,788 --> 00:42:18,792 with pyrexia and double vision. 753 00:42:39,779 --> 00:42:42,753 Abscess? 754 00:42:42,754 --> 00:42:44,787 Would have seen it on the MRI. 755 00:42:44,788 --> 00:42:47,782 Diphtheria paralyzing the ocular muscles? 756 00:42:47,783 --> 00:42:48,792 No, paralysis was first. 757 00:42:48,793 --> 00:42:50,771 - Aneurysm? - Not with this fever. 758 00:42:50,774 --> 00:42:52,791 Maybe we're thinking about this the wrong way. 759 00:42:52,792 --> 00:42:53,829 Retro-ocular infection? 760 00:42:53,830 --> 00:42:55,771 With no local symptoms? 761 00:42:55,796 --> 00:43:01,096